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I have always been a perfectionist. If you are one, you know how much a pain that can be. And in my case, I've always been a perfectionist towards myself. I'm never satisfied with what I do, I always think that I can do better. But also, whenever I set out to do something, I want it to be the absolute best, no space for anything other than perfect. That becomes particularly difficult for things in which I am not proficient.

But something in my life has been slowly teaching me to try and be less perfect, and allowing myself to naked things that are great, or even good. Surprisingly, that something is my writing. I just finished writing my second book, a novel this time. It's not a Pulitzer prize contender, and I'm ok with that. Mainly because I am neither a writer, nor I ever intend to be one. But also, English is not my native language. When you think about it, just the fact that a non-native, who has no formal training in writing, was able to write not one, but two book in English, that alone is an amazing achievement - regardless of the quality of the story. Yes, I am patting myself in the back, but wouldn't you?

Some people seem to like the story, the content. And I am thrilled about that. Some people might not, and I'm trying to be ok with that. In other times, that would hurt me and stop me from writing or publishing it, but I won't let it anymore. I mean, even great authors with amazing books have people who dislike their work, so why should I be so thin skinned about it?

Writing a murder mystery is something I have always wanted to do, and I sat down and did it. And I'm incredibly proud of myself. I write for fun, and I had a lot of fun writing this story. Going back, nit picking and looking for flaws takes the fun our of it. Some people might find out who's the killer easily, some might be mislead. And that's ok. Some people might love it, some might think it's not a great work. And that's ok. Some people might buy it, others might not. And that's ok.

My part is done. I wrote the book and I am putting it out to the world. If the world will take it or not, it's none of my business anymore. I can only hope for the best. My life goes on either way.

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