Like Sunday morning

I remember this vividly, as if it happened yesterday. And if you know me well, you know what a big deal this is: my memory sucks. But I guess this made a mark on me. And it's not even a long story, either.

It happened around 15-20 years ago, when I had just come out of the closet and started to explore my life as an early 20's gay man. I had friend, who for the purpose of telling the story, I will call G. G had a friend called W. One day, W told G that he, W, was into me, and his dream would be to kiss me and to have sex with me. My friend G then answered something along the lines of: you know this is the easiest dream to achieve, right? Bernardo is super easy. He'll sleep with anyone.

It was true, and it is still true to this day. But I think that the thing about it that made a mark on me is what it meant to me, and what it still means to me today. I imagine many people would be mortified to have someone talk about them like this, they would consider it something to be ashamed of, something they should hide and change about themselves. I, on the other hand, was proud of it. I was proud of being easy, proud of being a slut, proud of being so well resolved with my sexuality and to be sex positive. 

Sex is something beautiful and amazing, as long as it's done right - I don't mean positions, I mean consent and respect to each other's limits. It is not something that should be hidden or frowned upon. Sex should be much more than reproduction. Sex is a way of celebrating someone's body, of sharing someone's vulnerabilities and exploring someone's intimacy. It should not make ourselves feel guilty or wrong.

So, yes. I was easy back then and I am easy right now. And I am very proud of that. And I truly wish the world would be as easy as I am, in every possible sense. Life would be easier for everyone. And for those who ever judged me, who ever wanted to hurt me and offend me when they called me easy, I don't wish them bad. I wish that they find the same freedom in their lives. However that means for them.

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